Busy

Being the only person to drive leaves me running ragged some times. I don’t mind it. Now that I don’t live in Tampa, and I don’t have to deal with 275 at rush hour or I-4 at any time, I’m good..

It just seems like I’m always running some one, some where. Again, not a complaint. 

I really want and need some time to sit at my computer and do the things I want to do. Never enough time, it seems. 

I’m not sure where I was going to go with this post. Lol.

 My brain is all over the place. I need to start Christmas shopping. I also like to make things for people.. but.. that takes money and a LOT of my time….  And I don’t know if they like what I make. And the thought of putting time and effort into stuff for it to get unused or tossed makes me twitch. 

So, what to do?? Ugh.

I’ve got a programming language I want to learn. I’ve got some World History I want to know more about. I’ve got books I want to read. 

No time.

Maybe some day….

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Present day

So, I’m fat. Morbidly obese. I totally just gave up and ended up gaining 25 more lbs.

I could spend time being angry with myself about it, but what good would that do? Self pity is what got me here. I’m to the point that I’m really uncomfortable and having a hard time doing normal things. How sad.

I’ve decided on a few things. My house is in disarray. So, this week, room by room, it’s getting decluttered and deep cleaned, right down to shampooing the carpets. I’m purging SO MUCH. Then, I’m going to spend a day or two on Ancestry crossing some T’s and dotting some I’s, then I’m cancelling my subscription for awhile. I need a break..

I’m taking the money from Ancestry, and signing up at the gym. I’m even toying with the idea of getting a trainer. I’ve got to do something. I don’t do it here, even though I have all that I need. If I’m paying for it, you can bet your ass I’m going to GO.

Tomorrow I go for X-rays on my knees. Doc isn’t sure what’s going on. I’ve either got a misaligned kneecap, bursitis, or a ligament issue. If X-rays don’t show anything conclusive, then I’ll need an MRI. All I know is I can’t walk to the bathroom without limping. The pain has steadily gotten worse over the years. I had X-rays two years ago that showed arthritic changes in both knees, my right worse than my left. 

I also start physical therapy this week. Three times a week for four weeks. I’m actually looking forward to it. I miss being mobile.

We have an exercise bike, I hope to be able to use it soon.

I’ve also decided to just put my foot down with the family on what we eat. No more garbage.

If it isn’t fruit, veggies, lean meats and MAYBE a bit of grains, it’s not coming in this house…  no more. I’m done. My kid is chronically constipated. Hubby is on so many meds I’ve lost count. He lives on ice cream and shitty cereal and wonders why he feels like crap. I buy all kinds of fresh, organic stuff and it goes bad because no one eats it but me! 

Shits gonna get real when I go grocery shopping this week. They aren’t gonna be happy with me. 

I’m going to weigh and measure tomorrow, as much as I don’t wanna, and I’m gonna get back to it. I can’t shop til Wednesday/Thursday, and have to make do with what we’ve got here.

I’m so sad. I’ve become the fat woman I’d see and feel bad for..  

Day 59

While I have largely pissed away the last 58 days, I’m still trying.

I ate well today. I started my day with a Shakeology with spinach and almond milk. I had a late breakfast/early lunch of an omelet with peppers and onions, and ham and rye. I should have foregone the rye. Dammit, I love bread. :/

I got in 8 oz of a kombucha drink I bought to try. I’ve had a swimming pool’s worth of water lol. I really needed to get in some fruit, but after a dinner of a large salad with hard boiled eggs and a cup of beef bone broth, I’m stuffed!

I’m happy with my choices today. 😁

Day 58

I rocked today. Just sayin’…  😬

Hoping I can do the same tomorrow. 👍🏻

I’m TRYING to go gluten free. I found gluten free croutons. Yay!

My salad for lunch was delish.

My dinner was even better!


It’s chicken, bacon, sweet potatoes, apples, onion, and Brussels all cooked in a skillet, seasoned with garlic, thyme, salt, pepper, and cinnamon. Amazing!!

I also got in 96 oz water. 😳

👍🏻

Day 41


A yummy lunch!!

A big salad, with gluten free croutons. And a small glass of kefir. 
Sitting here enjoying the meal with my mom. 

It’s so cold out today. We have lots of snow. I had wanted to go take pics, but I can’t seem to warm up! Ugh. 

While our winter has been ridiculously mild, I’m anxious for a warm up. I want to get my raised garden beds built!  

I think after lunch, I’m going to read for awhile under a heavy comforter in hopes that I can once again feel my fingers and toes! 

Have a great day! 

Day 12

Shakeology every day. Eating relatively well. I need to up my veggie intake though. No soda, except maybe twice. Lots and lots of water. I’ve cut dairy WAAAY back. I still have a slice of cheese here and there, and I’ve been having a cup of kefir daily, but that’s a drastic reduction for me. 

I’ve noticed two major changes. One is my belly bloat, it is gone. The other, is that whatever has been wrong with my face all these years, appears to be clearing up. (Think rosacea, only that’s not what it is…)

I’m very pleased with both changes. 

Off to run errands and get a few groceries, then home to do laundry and get my work out in. 

Have a fantastic day y’all!! 

Day 10

I did a Slim in 6 workout today. I did it last week too.

I cried. In frustration. I’m too fat to do some of it. That’s maddening. But instead of letting it lead me to defeat, I’m using that feeling to push me onward.

I don’t want to be fat any more.

Plain and simple. 

I got through it, even though I had to stop once or twice, and when I couldn’t do a particular part, I just kept moving. 

I felt like puking when I was done. I drank a water and then made a Shakeology with banana and got over it.

I know this isn’t going to be easy. And I know I’m only going to get out what I put in. I’m going to work out 3 days a week for now.. 

My knee is so shot. I cannot do lunges. It gives out on me completely. I fell down twice as a result. I’m just going to do what I can. 

Also, side planks can suck it. 

🖕🏻