Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

I’ve come to the determination that I’m nuts. I mean, for real.

I know the kinds of food I NEED to eat. I know the kinds of food I NEED to avoid. And while I make an effort, it’s not enough. I will do well, and then hubby wants to stop somewhere bad to eat, and instead of saying no, my tires are squealing into the parking lot. Or I’m good til my mom says, “Ohhh let’s bake this!” 

I’m not blaming my hubby or my mom. It’s ME. I am weak. And I’m not sure how to MAKE.IT.STOP.

Y’all that have followed me over the years must tire of the same old fucking bullshit from me.  I know that I am tired of it.

Last month I attempted to do something different. I spent an entire day prepping and cooking a weeks worth of foods with the hopes that my family would actually eat it, and it would make things a bit easier on me. It wasn’t a total failure. Out of 24 containers, only 2 got tossed. 

I’m going to do it again, but only 3 or 4 days at a time, and will include lunches. For all 4 of us. 

I am currently undergoing physical therapy for my knees. No exercise til my therapist says so.  I’ve been doing some upper body stuff til I can hit it full force. I’m kind of excited because the place I go to offers personal training for weight lifting. I’m going to talk to them about it when I go to my next appointment. 

It’s $25 a month for a personalized situation. She has a doctorate in this stuff, so I am hopeful she can keep me going forward.

I will start another attempt at eating right in the next week.  I don’t eat horrible, but I need to lock it down. 

✌🏻

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It’s a hard pill to swallow.. that realization that if you were to die tomorrow, the only people who would REALLY be upside down over it are your mom, your kid, and maybe your hubby for a spell. 

I’ve tried to be good and do good. I always come up short. In the big picture, I simply don’t matter. 

Day 83

Slacker. That’s me. Lol.

I’m craving roasted beets. There is clearly something wrong with me. Hah! I’ll be picking some up today while out running errands. Gonna have lunch out with the momma. I plan to have a big salad and then stop by a local cafe for a cappuccino. 

It’s rainy and chilly here. Lots of chirpy birds this morning. It’s time to bring out the patio furniture. Coffee on the porch, while wrapped in a blanket, would have been awesome this morning. 

I have a lot to do today. Then later, it’s game night with friends. 

Hoping tomorrow to take a trip down memory lane with the family. Gonna take a ride to PA, and hopefully see an old friend …  

I’m feeling very grateful this morning. I am not letting gray skies and rain dampen my mood. I’m too fortunate and too loved to be a sourpuss. 

👍🏻😊

Day 20

Almost through January and I’m still going strong. Woot!

I did have some junky food the other day, but other than that I’m doing good, eating healthy and exercising. 

It’s been cloudy and rainy and since the temps are in the 40s, 50s, and some times even the 60s, it’s MUDDY.  Ugh. I am totally ready for some snow. Let’s get this over with! There are 59 days til Spring!

I cannot wait for sunshine and bonfires and camping and spending lots of time in my hammock.  So.. let us get some snow so it actually feels like winter for a bit lol.. then we can move along to spring!

😁

Again.

Story of my life. I start, then give up. On everything. I’m really not sure what my malfunction is, but I’m so tired of it.

I started off the New Year with a wonderful cold. I feel like crap. I’ve slept most of the day. 

All I’ve consumed today is about 48 oz. of water and a chocolate Shakeology shake this morning. I’m about to try to eat some dinner.. chicken, brown rice and veggies. I’m so hungry, but my throat kills. This should be fun.

I weighed myself this morning. I need to take measurements and pics when my skin doesn’t hurt. 

I need to get this Christmas stuff out of here too. Ugh. Hoping after I get a shower and NyQuil myself into next week, I’ll get some more sleep and hopefully wake feeling a little better tomorrow….  fingers crossed! 

Day 13

I did 2 miles on the bike, quickly, as I was pressed for time. I spent some time with the momma outside, and some time with the kidlet discussing the floods that happened here in WV recently. I cleaned the kitchen, and after my ride took a shower and headed out to meet up with my bestie and her family to watch our towns local 4th parade. It was a good time!

Came home and put the camper up since kidlet and bff wanted to slee out there. I’m about to go join them. 

I know I’ve not been at it long, and I think this goes hand in hand with the absence of bloat, but my lower legs are looking better. No swelling, no cankles, my legs are taking shape. This brings me joy. 

I’ve been doing this upper arm work out that supposedly sculpts your arms from shoulder to wrist. We shall see. My arms are grossly huge.. But I am hoping that once the weight is gone, I’ll have some killer stuff making itself seen. 🙂 

I ate well today. I’m out of a lot of vegetables, so it’s off to the store tomorrow for what I need. I also need to do 5 miles tomorrow. No excuses.  

Day 12

We spent the day at a fabulous little park in the campground that we recently camped at. We went with my bff, so that our kidlet could hang with her bff, and the bff’s siblings. We had a really great time. I ate well. The only thing I had that I shouldn’t have had was a Gatorade. 


Here is M (in red) and bff, collecting salamanders.

We were there all day and I got a wee sunburn. Upon arriving home, I crashed and took a 2 hour nap. Ugh. And then an hour later, I went to bed.

No exercise.  😦